Any man could've claimed to be sent by God to "write his word". And, it could've been subjective. I'm not here to destroy or shake your beliefs. I want to state that now. This is a conversation my Mother, who lives by the Bible, has with me on a regular basis. But, I'm failing to see the "love" or the "truth". This is combination of experiences and my knowledge of the Bible.

I grew up being taught that I needed to avoid certain people, programs, music, and books due to the fact they could "release" demons. I am ill. My Mother believed that I needed prayer as a spirit attached itself to me. But, the reality is, it's genetic. Biology. Aside from this, there were also a lot of teachings regarding Homophobia and that people of other religions were deemed "evil" unless they converted. They were to be shunned and my Mother, being one of these people, still believes in the stoning of Witches. I went through a phase where I left Christianity and studied other belief systems (Satanism, Wicca, and Hinduism). I also, opened myself up to people of these other beliefs. They weren't evil. Yet, I was taught to avoid them. There was also a lot of misconception that I was taught by my family and our pastors regarding WHAT they actually believed and practiced.

And, now on my current path: I've discovered that in other texts the Holy Spirit is feminine and mixed explanations of Satan. Most of which, explain that Satan is more of symbol of Sin. Not a real being.

There is also this: "For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." - 2 Timothy 1:7.

Wouldn't this mean that God doesn't want us walking around in fear of this "evil"? That, in fact, he wants us to live with a spirit of love?