This all hits so close to home for me right now.

This all sums up exactly how I am feeling in my relationship.

I feel hideous. I have given birth two times and survived internal bleeding and septic shock, both of these things at the expense of my body. Stretch marks and surgical scars abound. My husband says my stomach is "a problem" and talks about how I should get surgery to fix it. Which... i want to fix it, it makes me angry to look at the scar since it's the result of medical malpractice.

But it's always been a problem. When we first got together I had very small breasts. He would openly watch porn of women with the biggest breasts he would find. He would often talk about what a shame it was that my boobs were so small. I once offered to send him sexy pictures of my boobs and he told me not to bother because there's "nothing to look at".

Pregnancy made my boobs grow a ton, I went from a AA to a D. Which he likes.

But now when he talks about how he supposedly likes my body, he can only really mention my boobs as a feature he enjoys. And my stomach is "a problem".