Hey, I'm sorry I haven't gotten to your reading yet. I received a lot of requests and have been busy with other personal things. I'm visiting my family and will be able to get to it Sunday or Monday.

But man, I feel for ya. Especially about giving yourself completely to someone, getting dumped almost immediately, and never really recovering.

Something like that happened to me about three years ago, and my life has just been a whirlwind of chaos, and not the fun kind so much, and I've lost almost all focus/energy/even courage to do anything about it.

Getting more into tarot and offering readings has been a small step in me trying to get back where I was, and hopefully make some progress.

I'm not that experienced at all, but more often than not, people tell me that my accuracy has freaked them out.

But based on your story, and without cards, I'd fill in the bubble for C. I read about an interesting 'Collapsing' ritual the other day I've been wanting to try.

http://runesoup.com/2010/05/good-spellcasting-means-knowing-when-to-collapse/

General aura/chakra/living-space cleansing is always a good thing. I'm sure you know this and have done these things, but they're worth revisiting.

I assure you I will consult my cards asap for you. I'm visiting my family now and left my cards at the apt, since I sleep in the den without any privacy. My deck actually belonged to my Mom before me, and she doesn't care that I have it or try to read them, but there's just not enough peace to concentrate here, plus a lot of weird sorta-negative energy, which I won't go into right now.

As for your repayment..hm. I'm interested, but I not sure what I'd like. We'll talk lolol.

Happy Merry Whatevermas Day!