Ha, DARE. Obviously biased, but don't get it twisted, opiates are killers. You can mess around with opiates for a long time and be fine. But know that you're tap dancing on a powder keg. You might be good for 5+ years and suddenly something changes and you need opiates now. I don't believe I've ever had a physical withdrawl from opiates, but mentally, I've had such bad cravings... I didn't know my mind was capable of that level of obsession. Literally three weeks of non stop obsessing. I could barely concentrate on anything else. From the minute I woke up to the minute I fell asleep it was "when am I gonna get high again?!" Then I'd dream about finding bags of blues while I slept.
I've never used a needle but I did start railing oxy. Ill never go back to just taking it orally. I know if I used a needle that would be the end. I could never go back to just railing it. I can feel that for sure. I think for me, a needle would be a death sentence. I wouldn't be able to put it down. I've graduated from a university and held down jobs but there's been a couple bumps as of recent.
Opiates aren't weed or LSD or MDMA or whatever. Opiates may not seem like a huge deal because they don't make you go out of you're head, you aren't tripping or manic or goofy. You just feel very pleasant. All the edges have been blunted. You can go to class or work or see friends and you're not fucke up, you're just happy. You can do it day after day and still function. Maybe even better than you did without it. But you use it too much, you get into the ritual, and it will be Hell when you stop.
Everything that was dull background noise comes back as blaring sirens. Real problems feel like a slap to the face or like a vice has been fixed to your heart. And I don't know how long that takes to go away because I've only made it a month since I started using too heavily and even after that amount of time everything was turne up to 11.
Once you get it in your head that you can live like you're floating on a cloud the idea never really leaves you. You can't miss what you don't know. If you haven't felt that cloud, don't go searching for it. It stays in your head. It makes everything else seem dull. Things that seemed fun or cool before you used are boring now. They can't compare.
Ugh sorry for my rambling I'm just trying to work out my current situation and I haven't really talked it out. But it's getting more and more frightening. I've considered IVing for the first time ever and there's really nothing that's stopping me. It honestly feels like a choice between life and death and it's really really stupid because every pill I've taken has been another step towards this and I know it's all my fault and I have no reason not to stop. I could have a good life. What do I want to do? Why is that even a question? It shouldn't be. I should be able to say "get on with my life" with zero hesitation. But opiates get such a sick hold on you that "dying with a needle in my arm" actually sounds like a viable choice.
I have a bachelors degree. I have an ok job. I have some money in the bank and I'm applying to graduate school. I have friends and family that love me and help me and rely on my love and help as well. But a small part of me thinks I should burn that all down just to get high. How fucked up is that? Is that what you want? It's all fun and games now. Relaxing after a long day at school, zoning out with your friends... But is that worth it to walk on a razor's edge between life and death? It's a black hole! There is nothing else so unproductive that you would give your life for. It's such a waste. It's a warm fuzzy feeling and that's it. Your life, just so you can have the warm fuzzys for a few hours!!! It's insane!!! Stay the fuck away!!!
TDLR: It's very easy to waste your life on opiates. Be very cautious.