Day ??? Of recovery:

Eating is what is important in the beginning and that's it. You don't have to feel guilty about it! When I started recovery I was her very regimented... scheduled everything, planning all my meals and snacks, measuring everything. I couldn't veer from that for quite a long time but I was eating everything I was supposed to and not bingeing or purging. Eventually the strict planning and calculating started to get frustrating to me. After that I slowly got more and more comfortable with more spontaneity and not calculating my food. In the past I tried to eat more intuitively before I was ready and it failed miserably. But when I just let recovery take it's course, that's when it stuck. I don't remember the last time I planned out my intake or measured something outside of making recipes. You can do this! Just keep going and you'll eventually get there when you're ready.

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