I wish you would stop being so blind and SEE ME and HEAR ME for once but you never let me speak and you never have just talked to ME. I know you think you know what is going on in my head and that I am mentally ill and that I am responding because of my trauma but I am not. Please listen to me…. Have you ever tried to add someone’s siblings and family on social media after a break up? I haven’t …. Have you ever contacted someone’s ex’s after you saw them in public with your ex to ask if they were together again? Because I haven’t…. I love you so damn much …. But you have let someone else sell you a narrative that just isn’t true and it hurts me too. You listen so intently to one party but you never allowed the other to speak except in desperation. Maybe when more than one person has the same experience it isn’t a lie. I love you but I don’t understand why I have never been allowed to speak and why you only ever listened to one person and I never was allowed to defend myself. I also don’t understand how VERY unusual and triggering behavior is seen as so normal and okay…. Have you ever done these things ? Why do I not get to be believed when you first hand witnessed them physically and mentally harm me… you yourself have told me that you have heard them say that they want to do malicious things to ruin peoples lives … why don’t you believe yourself ? I love you but I don’t understand how you live with this much cognitive dissonance. I am expected to just forgive with no acknowledgment of how I have been hurt too …. I am expected to say I am sorry when I have never been given closure and was left to spiral without any understanding and left in the cruelest way I have ever been left in my life…. I gave a man who assaulted me more closure than I was given and treated them better when I ended things than I was treated …. Yet I am supposed to apologize for things ? Yet get no apology ? Please explain this to me. I love you but I don’t think you are as evolved at you think you are when you are still excusing his abuse of me and another women. Take some responsibility for your actions.