Not at all. I wish I could give everyone in the world the feeling I got to feel. Safe, no longer paranoid and in fear. I have CPTSD and I found the dose I needed to feel love and safe once more. I haven’t felt such amazing love in my life before. A sense of wanting to share what I got to feel with others and just be kind and share some light with others. Definitely no joke here. Love and kindness begets love and kindness. Sometimes it just takes awhile to happen. I hope you get to experience what I have. Pure goddamn love. Love that expects nothing in return, no want, no need, just to give someone love. Everyone deserves to feel that. It’s just so pure.