Just wanted to say I understand you very well. I will not give any advice since I feel this way too, so it will look more like an advice to myself rather than to you if I give it. All I want to say that you are not alone, there are people that feels this way also and it's real to find them. I used to communicate a lot in social media before and used to find different interesting individuals even without this kind of problems, and we used to click. The only problem was I wasn't able to keep the communication longer bc of different reasons. But I believe you don't have the same issue I had. I used to write to people out of nowhere, from exemple seeing an interesting comment that made me realise the person is special and writing a PM. It can start easy just like that, if both are interested in mentainting the conversation after some time. If it doesn't work at first, it eventually work with other people, believe me, you just have to try. For people like us it's always hard to find someone that embrace our "weirdness" but it's still real. Also with the time I realised I'm happy I don't fit in this world, I actually dont want to fit in a world like this. You just have to find something that makes this world just a bit bearable. For exemple It was hard for me to find a meaning in this life since I never felt understood or accepted, now I just go with the flow, making plans for myself, like for exemple now I want to buy a camera and try a new hobby, this is a baby step, still it gives me a reason to live, even if this sounds weird, like how a thing like that can give you a reason to live? It's because hope lies in the little details. What if I can make a side job out of it? What if I can travel around the world later in life because of this side job? You never know. Maybe it will not work out, maybe it will. Why I'm saying this to you? Because when we focus on ourselves the good things will come anyway. At least this is what I'm trying to say to myself these days. Hang it there, it's worth living.