I have had the feeling of looking behind the curtains of reality every single day for at least 10 years. I first tried psychs/weed 23 years ago. I function very well, but definitely not in the same way as other people. The "unreality" is woven into my being at this point. Do I feel crazy or mentally handicapped? No. It merely augments my normal functions and I believe gives me exceptional ability to view my thoughts from a distance. I can detach from ego anytime I want. Though I feel very very comfy in my skin, normal people might think I am odd because I don't have the same cravings and reactions. I am working on a PhD, happily married, and hitting the gym regularly, so obviously I am functioning reasonably well. After losing myself thousands of times and always coming back, I have little fear of permanent psychosis.