I was a fire escape inspector and repairman for an undisclosed amount of time.

I hit it off with the owner of the company and gave it a trial period but I just developed a true fear of heights working under situations where I thought I could fall or a situation where I could endanger others with small tool pieces. I had pedestrians beneath me and I often feared I'd drop a drill over a baby carriage. Never made so much money in one paycheck. But I often feared that I'd die with little agency over it. It's much different than working a boring job and wishing for death because it's mundane existence.

I bet if I stayed I would have gotten in shape to handle myself, but the fear still lingers.