Falling in love is one of the worst things that could have ever happened to me

This is going to sound bad, but this is part of the reason I don't let myself fall in love anymore. I was very close to my grandma. She died right before I began high school and it messed me up in all kinds of ways. But it still didn't completely close me off from love. That happened in college. I fell hard for a friend thinking he felt the same way about me. Nothing physical ever happened between us, but a lot of emotional conversations did. Ended up making things weird between us by telling him I liked him. Things were never the same after that.

I met someone else not too long after and ended up marrying him. I like my husband very much, and I do love him as a friend, but I'm not in love with him. I've always viewed our relationship as more of a practical thing than anything else.

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