I’m sorry you’re dealing with this. I could relate to you in many ways when I was younger dealing with this. What I can say for sure is that it’s a matter of time where you start carving your path to a better life on your own terms. You’re still in school yeah? The moment I got an opportunity to get out, I did. I took a job in a far away state and started out on my own. It wasn’t easy at first but was the best decision I made. It takes patience and full realization of our current situation. As someone once said to me, when you accept what is, it becomes easier to see things clearly instead of wishing what you want things to be like. This way you can achieve where you want to get by accepting your current reality and shaping things moving forward. You have to try to not let this bother you but use it as your strength. It does take time and patience and keeping mentally healthy too