your connection never goes dead, its unfortunately all part of it. I don't know why the universe is like this, why its so fucked up. if you feel you are in limbo at the moment then you are, and its okay, all you can really do is be yourself, learn and let things change. do more things for yourself, take care of yourself, and I wish you well on your journey, don't worry, the universe gives you what you can handle, but its life, everything is every thing, zero separation, love is pain, pain is love, time is space, space is time ect. I dunno, all i know is that, winter is props upon you, and spring will come around soon and you'll blossom, much love from stranger number320957725325823 I wish you well.