If I openly said my "favourite" series was Steins;Gate, I'd get a bunch of odd and demeaning looks. The series is unknown, so people don't have the words for it. They are either disgusted or disinterested. Like you said, there is only the 3-4 "Flavor of The Month Animes and Games". People are not aware that this series exists, and whose to say what others would think. You need to be pretty die hard into otaku culture to withstand the barrage of nonsense brought out by the game. Though, the game has a glossary! Why not start learning? Its probably my negative emotions tattering my judgment. I both dislike my decision to explore this series and love it. Comparing it to Okabe, I wish I knew what the side of effects of time travel would do to the world I loved. The people I loved. Everything went to hell from one D-Mail. Thats kind of like pressing that play button. Like pushing the send button. With everything over, I am still being tormented by the past. Would I trade this experience and discussion for peace of mind? That's a tricky question. Do I erase all that I've build because of these memories, or do I push through and attempt a life of normalcy, once again. These conversations are some of the best discussion I've had and I am grateful. However, it still stings to be reminded of the series over and over.

This brings me back to a previous post. Do people collect and harvest the goods of a specific series to avoid these feelings? Do they immerse themselves in false fantasy for the very reason I am depressed? Does collecting and immersing yourself in the series make it sting less? Does it start getting better? I can't imagine being alone with these feelings. Luckily, I'm not entirely alone. What makes it stop? What makes you both able to handle the series and have a genuine life? I've experienced this feeling more times than I can count, and I've never been able to put it to terms in science.

Around the time I got home from a haircut this afternoon. I had fallen asleep and woken up with the faintest feeling of a dream. My mind was trailing off somewhere. Though, there is no telling where. It had to have been depressing. You don't just wake up and immediately feel the weight of the world on your shoulders. Why didn't you ask for news on the Visual Novel or the movie? Who cares about the manga adaption! We needed this information! The Organization is hiding it from us...in our dreams.