Had the sad realisation on the weekend that a close friend of mine actually isn't that close at all. He's a good person, but he has so many social anxiety and interaction/attention problems as a result that whenever we hang out we struggle for conversation and even more so to actually do anything meaningful together. I feel bad because I understand a part of it is due to his mental health. Yet as that's a part of his personality then it makes it difficult for me to be his friend.
I'm probably even more upset about it because that means I actually have no close friends at all then. Hence spilling my guts on a God damn footy subreddit. Loneliness sucks, so thanks for the occasional laugh everyone.