I'm addicted to synthetic marijuana. I'm watching the office for the hundredth time on dvd because I'm too lazy to get internet. I just washed my clothes yesterday for the first time in months. Now there's a pile of unfolded clothes on my couch. It feels better I guess to wear clean clothes. I only shower maybe once a week anyhow. I'll probably go out and have a cigarette to get some fresh air. My apartment smells of hundreds of pizza boxes and boxes of trash.
I live off ordering food like 95% pizza because I don't go out shopping anymore. I'm staying skinny but I'm not sure if I'm in pain because when I smoke, I don't feel anything. I just spent a few days cleaning a couple weeks ago but I haven't kept anything up or even thrown away the boxes of trash. Maybe I'll throw it out or do some more cleaning or smoke.
I need to order more food. I'm eating pizza that's gone bad for days. But when I smoke I feel good. I'll probably go masturbate a few times with a fleshlight attached to my desk. I don't clean it. The smell and weeks of cum and lube get me off now. I have work at 9 so I'll probably smoke until 6 or probably 7. I already slept like 4 hours today so that's good enough. Maybe I'll kill myself today or smoke. I'm sure I'll feel like getting my shit together next weekend because I can't during the week because I have less time to smoke.
When the weekend comes I'll probably just smoke from when I get home until I go back to work but I'm not worried about that now. I'm high. I've smoked 3 bowls while typing this. Getting for 1.30/g makes it so I can afford to smoke nonstop all the time. Not like weed that actually helps me or feels good all the time. I can order this online. I dont have to deal with shady people getting ripped off and hiding from the law as much. But I'd rather be high nonstop even if I feel like dying from coughing up shit. I'm sure I'll get my shit together soon. Or kill myself. Or get high. I can't run out. I buy months worth at once, months in advance because I don't need to save money or do anything when I have drugs and pizza.