work. i can't get work. i can't study since i don't feel like it's worth it. i'm depressed almost all times and i also don't feel like life is worth anything besides getting fun, joy, sex, kissing, humor, connections, dying/death.

might sound really weird but i don't believe in any after life, i believe this is it and this is all of it and i'm going to enjoy all of the sex, love, kissing, music, food, drink, alcohol, parties that it can give me until i die. i am on my way to getting a good job but i hate it i might think about going to a shitty idioticly stupid job under my mental level just because it's easier and i'm going to die soon anyway you know, like around 40 years from now or earlier idk we'll see. why work when you can live.