I mean didn't you just say you were the best boyfriend the first time around and she still left? I feel the same about my ex, I treated him like a literal King except for one time when I didn't hear from him for 5 days when he was out of the country on vacation and I blew up his phone worried that something had happened to him or that he was ghosting me. Besides that, I treated him like a straight-up King but I was full of anxiety because he refused to wear condoms and I think that anxiety ate me away into a shell of a person. I think he probably remembers me for my good qualities but probably also remembers me as a pretty stressful person to be around