I've let go of resentment. My ex had too many narcissistic traits so he definitely thinks I'm obsessed with him, when in reality I just don't care anymore. Unblocking him would only provide him with an ego boost that I'm thinking of him, and I don't wanna do that. So I'm in a very confused state of mind and I think it's best I stay tf away and some other girl can have the headache.

I think I've moved on by only 80-90% because if he comes back and makes me believe he changed, i might give in, also I genuinely find myself forgetting about him and the relationship, but I feel guilty about it and end up reminding myself of the good times so I don't totally forget about it. So that explains it. If I don't remind myself intentionally, I will move on completely for sure. It's just that I feel bad I'm forgetting about him? I don't even remember his face much, it's all a foggy memory and I don't know if it's a trauma response to the constant cycle of love bombing, devaluation and discard that lasted for a year. It's a good thing I'm forgetting about him honestly and I should actually LET MYSELF forget about him.

There was a time when I was wondering why I wasn't enough, but the more I learnt about narcissistic relationships and its dynamics, I realized the problem is with my ex, not me. That contributed to me moving on. Also I've come to a realization that my ex is just another average guy, or maybe even worse than majority of the guys, and he needs therapy. He's no one special, I fell in love with the potential, and he isn't even capable of reaching that potential, in reality I don't even know him since he lied about everything ever. In a way, I'm thankful he was a huge liar so I don't feel guilty about moving on.

Also you're very right, I won't unblock him until I've 100% moved on. I know that if he says the right words, I might let him back in and he doesn't deserve it. I would if he changed, but it's next to impossible.

Thankyou for your insights, truly appreciate it :)