Oh no I was hoping you wouldn’t say that. I strongly encourage yourself to stop saying what you just said to me. The four letter word shouldn’t be used. Do you like gaining knowledge? Studying the brain can be a worthy endeavor, knowing what scientists think is happening when we do things or when others act a certain way, it can help you see things differently. It really is just a reworking of the network. And the sigh of relief I feel, it feels good. I’m not anything about it, sad happy mad bitter crying, it’s just gone, that idea or feeling. Where it goes? The doctors don’t even know fully how this works. I’m referencing the Electroconvulsive therapy, (ECT) which I’m shocked isn’t used more. It is a lifesaver for me, and I’m planning on getting about twenty treatments and then maintenance. You need to be in charge as much as possible about your brain. Who knows how I would feel at the moment but indifferent and just not caring is the best, it will set you free. Good luck, I need to go.