We’re not oblivious, we’re scared of either getting hurt or getting in trouble and being made a social pariah.

Yoo fr, I’m 25 and I don’t even fucking smile in pictures anymore. I’ve just kind of given up. Any selfie I attempt to take turns into self loathing and intense criticism followed by long sullen sighs and on and on and I don’t want to go on anymore b/c I’ll get sadder.

I use to be eloquent, loquacious, articulate.. I use to draw, write poetry, write reviews.. I was used in high school, and friend-zoned and was left on the hook.

Part of it can also be apathy, but it’s never JUST ONE THING. It is the culmination and amalgam of the myriad of feelings that have turned to shit because of too many rejections by girls over the years. I figure... I ran track, played football and basketball all for my high school, use to play piano and guitar and this was at the age of 18...I fucking peaked in my latter teens and ALL THROUGHOUT THOSE PEAK YEARS. I was used as nothing more but an attention giver, emotional buffer, listener, etc. and was never approached romantically or even a fucking hook up. I use to have abs and a good body. I was only ever rejected when I tried to express feelings so girls I liked over the years.

I have come to the conclusion that if I couldn’t get ANYTHING at my best...well what the FUCK is the point of even trying.. there is no point anymore. I’d kill myself if I wasn’t such a fucking pussy.

Women have so much power over us, to destroy our entire lives with a few simple accusatory words.