You electrocuted your bully?
I once went to the school with a butcher knife but I didn't use it as I was aware of the repercussions. Getting my ass beat barehanded didn't get them into much trouble and if they did, that didn't helped me as I still felt powerless from the height difference in the fight, trying my hardest, sometimes I got picked up and thrown away like it was nothing. I felt inferior as they didn't even did martial arts or anything yet they were so much stronger.
Yeah, it affected me a lot. It shaped my worldview growing up. I don't feel comfortable around people above 5'7/5'8, I feel like I can't let my guard down and show weakness.
I'd love to get over that trauma, but it's far from being as easy as wishing for it.