Leaving Islam was...an interesting for me. I still remember the day I finally came to the decision about my apostasy. I was lying there in bed. My heart began beating very quickly and thoughts rushed into my head with the freedom I am now able to have to partake in all the things that were forbidden from me before: sex, drink, drugs. A life unrestricted and unadulterated by the confines of religion.
A few months into my leaving Islam, I had an encounter with a man I deemed attractive where I seduced him to kiss me. We messed around a bit like that without going any further. This went on for a total of three days. My mind was messed up with the idea of, "Islam is false, I can do whatever I want" without thinking rationally about what I was doing. I wanted to do "haram" things simply for the sake of trying them out. This was very bad. Around the same time, I smoked weed for the first time. I was taking things too quickly and didn't have anyone to keep me in check at first. I felt guilty about doing many of these things, but eventually it faded away for me when I came to the realisation that there is no thawaab/point system keeping track of our deeds and sins, that Islam is a false religion, and that a god likely doesn't exist and that even if he did, I don't know why he would even care about the actions of us measly human beings on this tiny obscure planet in the vast space of solar system and universe.
A close friend of mine called me out on a particular one of my actions, deeming it irresponsible. At first I got very angry at him because I thought he was preventing me from life, but I realise now that he only said what he did to protect me and because he was considerate of the culture we come from. He was understanding that I was going through changes in my life and growing up since leaving Islam and was non judgmental and accepting of this. I very much appreciate this and am eternally grateful to him for calling me out on my actions especially during that period of my life, and still am when he keeps me in check. Otherwise, who knows where I could have ended up.
In stark contrast to this approach, my girlfriends had a really fucking stupid "intervention"-style thing which basically started off by my closest, best friend, disclosing all the intimate details of my life to a girl I barely know. They gathered together and surrounded me that day and basically slut-shamed me for my actions with that man, calling me a whore and what have you, saying I was bringing shame to my family and that I was losing the plot, my morals, identity etc and "going down a bad path". Perhaps there was some truth to what they said, though the manner in which they showed their concern for me was not considerate whatsoever. And all their comments, this coming from non-practicing Muslims who have done everything haram under the sun, mind you. So I don't know why they held what I was doing so much so against me. I found the guise of their approach extremely hypocritical.
When they demanded an answer our of me as to why I was going what I was, I said that I found Islam to be a restrictive religion and that I was now experiencing things it did not let me do in the past. They wouldn't take this as a legitimate answer and told me to stop blaming the religion for my actions. I eventually had to come out with a story about how my actions were the result of my getting heartbroken from a man I was (and this is true) infatuated with before. I broke down in tears sobbing on the floor crying out his name. I must admit, I acted very well in this instance. No one had any inclination I was making things up. Apparently my reaction was deemed a satisfactory one as I got looks of concern and pity from my group of "friends" and they stopped interrogating me on the spot.
So they accepted this answer from me for their intial question, but ever since that day I have always questioned their integrity as my friends for making me feel that way. Their calling me out in that manner hurt me so much more than the guilt that came with indulging in the "forbidden" actions in the first place.