Another terrible day. Approx 8k calories consumed. 3rd day this week I've been pushing 10k. Maybe 60 grams of fiber but I still had room for all the pizza and ice cream and crap... Ugh. I'm thinking I literally need to just throw all my food out of the house, even beans and fruit. Thinking of taking them to the foodbank tomorrow. I know that's probably irrational. But I feel I need to start a strict "cleanse" and I need to only keep the "right" foods around for this cleanse. I'm very concerned about the state of my arteries. Think I've had literally 5 tubs of ice cream in the past week. That's a shittone of saturated fat right there without even including all the other crap.

Still, since I did manage to fast for a few days I probably only gained like a fraction of a pound once bloating is accounted for. But Another terrible day. Approx 8k calories consumed. 3rd day this week I've been pushing 10k. Maybe 60 grams of fiber but I still had room for all the pizza and ice cream and crap... Ugh. I'm thinking I literally need to just throw all my food out of the house, even beans and fruit. Thinking of taking them to the foodbank tomorrow. I know that's probably irrational. But I feel I need to start a strict "cleanse" and I need to only keep the "right" foods around for this cleanse. I'm very concerned about the state of my arteries. Think I've had literally 5 tubs of ice cream in the past week. That's a shittone of saturated fat right there without even including all the other crap.

Still, since I did manage to fast for a few days I probably only gained like a fraction of a pound once bloating is accounted for. But Another terrible day. Approx 8k calories consumed. 3rd day this week I've been pushing 10k. Maybe 60 grams of fiber but I still had room for all the pizza and ice cream and crap... Ugh. I'm thinking I literally need to just throw all my food out of the house, even beans and fruit. Thinking of taking them to the foodbank tomorrow. I know that's probably irrational. But I feel I need to start a strict "cleanse" and I need to only keep the "right" foods around for this cleanse. I'm very concerned about the state of my arteries. Think I've had literally 5 tubs of ice cream in the past week. That's a shittone of saturated fat right there without even including all the other crap.

Still, since I did manage to fast for a few days I probably only gained like a fraction of a pound once bloating is accounted for. But im still 20-25lbs up from where I was a few months ago. I figure if I can stick to 1500 for 3 months I should be able to lose what I want. But I'm suffocated by the idea of what to include in the diet and my appetite/stress driving me to eat is out of control. Really don't want to destroy myself even more, but fear I will. Another terrible day. Approx 8k calories consumed. 3rd day this week I've been pushing 10k. Maybe 60 grams of fiber but I still had room for all the pizza and ice cream and crap... Ugh. I'm thinking I literally need to just throw all my food out of the house, even beans and fruit. Thinking of taking them to the foodbank tomorrow. I know that's probably irrational. But I feel I need to start a strict "cleanse" and I need to only keep the "right" foods around for this cleanse. I'm very concerned about the state of my arteries. Think I've had literally 5 tubs of ice cream in the past week. That's a shittone of saturated fat right there without even including all the other crap.

Still, since I did manage to fast for a few days I probably only gained like a fraction of a pound once bloating is accounted for. But im still 20-25lbs up from where I was a few months ago. I figure if I can stick to 1500 for 3 months I should be able to lose what I want. But I'm suffocated by the idea of what to include in the diet and my appetite/stress driving me to eat is out of control. Really don't want to destroy myself even more, but fear I will. still 20-25lbs up from where I was a few months ago. I figure if I can stick to 1500 for 3 months I should be able to lose what I want. But I'm suffocated by the idea of what to include in the diet and my appetite/stress driving me to eat is out of control. Really don't want to destroy myself even more, but fear I will. Still 20-25lbs up from where I was a few months ago. I figure if I can stick to 1500 for 3 months I should be able to lose what I want. But I'm suffocated by the idea of what to include in the diet and my appetite/stress driving me to eat is out of control. Really don't want to destroy myself even more, but fear I will.