Sending you hugs! You replaced your drug habit with food! I replaced my bulimia with drugs because I felt that drugs were easier to quit personally than to deal with the demon of my eating disorder, but here I am many years later still dealing with binge eating disorder. I’ve become morbidly obese, I’ve had stomach reduction surgery, I’ve lost my fking sense of smell and taste and I still binge like a fking asshole.

But you know what ? I am so happy I joined this sub. I read posts like yours, and we are the same person. When I read your post- I know you can get better and get over this. You have been through so much, you can beat this. You are better than this. But you cant keep masking it and replacing it with addictions. Reach out to a therapist, counselor, and figure out the core of what is causing you to use these addictions to cope. We will get through this, one day at a time. Not everyday will be a good day, but if 90% of days we overcome our addictions I would say we won.