Hey OP! I feel you and I completely understand because I sometimes wish for another ED too.

I had a couple years where I purged. I still struggle with bad acid reflux from purging even tho I stopped a long time ago. My teeth are translucent and weak. I did a lot of damage to my body. I did lose some weight but never enough to be at a healthy bmi or even skinny. I stayed overweight. It is a living hell and it was never worth it. My binging got worse too both the size of my binges and frequency. It is very addictive. You think you have it under control but you don’t. It’s like a drug almost.

Pls don’t fall into this trap OP. There are other ways. I promise!