Have you thought that maybe it's your behavior and attitude rather than your physical form that is "repulsing" women? We can sense desperation and the look of guys just seeing us as sexual/romantic objects pretty quickly. Start thinking of women as just people (if you don't rn, which most guys with your mindset don't honestly, leading to incels and then future MGTOW). If love happens, it will. If it doesn't then you need to learn to live with that. It may be lonely for awhile but being in a relationship should not be considered a guarantee or a requirement to live a happy life. Work on yourself first most and women will see that and will find you attractive for it.

Saying this as somebody who has been attracted to guys who are definitely not considered conventionally handsome, but they were sweet and respectful and I adored them for it AND found them attractive because of it.