I’ve been talking to a girl that I matched with on Tinder. Honestly, I wasn’t really enthusiastic about being there, but I wanted to talk to someone, maybe have somebody to hang with occasionally. I don’t usually chase girls, but this girl freaking blind sided me. She doesn’t just have qualities I like, she’s like exactly what I was aiming for when I think about my taste in women. I know I’m not always rational. I see absolutely no difference between the rational side and the irrational side. We’ve been talking for a few days now and laid almost everything on the table. Nothing I said really gave her pause until I mentioned that I’ve been diagnosed as borderline at least three times in my life. I told her I’ve put a lot of work in and that’s the truth. But she terrifies me. I tell her how important boundaries are for me and I don’t know if she really understands. She said she wouldn’t sleep with me on our first date. But she’s not the first girl that told me that. I’m scared I’ll feel so intoxicated that I’ll sweep her off her feet and we’ll both be swept away. I told her everything would be amazing until it wasn’t. I just keep reminding her that she can’t let me skip steps. We gotta go slow. But then I’m like, buuuuut she’s soooo amazing, it’ll be alright. I’m fucking stupid about this shit.