I don't understand friendships

Everything about this I can relate to. Someone I would consider my best friend I've had since I was around 12. Now we don't really talk, she lives far away, but if we do it's about what she does in her life, or whatever. Which, sometimes its alright because I do care about how she is doing, but idk. It was the same with other people I would have considered friends too. I try to make sure if I am talking to someone I value like that that I ask about them and their life when we talk, and idk it's not usually reciprocated. They don't care, or maybe they don't think to ask, which fine but then like... don't consider me a friend if I'm just an aquiantence or someone to blab off to.

Honestly when I hear what others do and talk about with their 'friends', it's sounds fucking toxic. Maybe it's just what I've seen, but it's so much drama, fake shit for show. Y'all hang out and just talk about yourselves in an echo chamber where everyone is trying to one up the others around??? Idk what's the point to that? Maybe it's just the people I end up around. And like someone else said too, social media has definitely made things worse.

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