He doesnt say them anymore. But when we started dating he told me how my butt was small. Then went on about his love for big butts. And how its disappointing this actress is pretty but has a small butt. Said hes been with prettier girls. How I should KNOW I'm not a 10, that I'm a 7. Bla bla bla Then uses the saying well I already did that stuff I'm over it. And he hasnt said anything like that in awhile like maybe over a year. But the words are plastered in my mind. He also has and is working on a porn addiction. It's very hard and he doesn't understand how those things hurt me still and how I have trouble believing the opposite. Or that I'm supposed to believe hes magically changed and no longer likes those things more. My soul has been crushed and I dont see the point of leaving bc hes different now and the damage is done.

I'm being toxic by holding onto it