Love has already been exchanged. Mostly from him. I've never been the first one to say it but I have replied. Last week he told me he loved me again and added that he knew it made me uncomfortable for him to say it. I told him it just scared me.

It's a complex situation and I appreciate your thoughtful reply. You've never been a butthead to me but you have told me things I needed to hear. I've always been truthful in my postings here because otherwise, what's the point?

I do believe it's decision time for me. I love this man dearly. I love him in a different way than I ever loved my husband. Of course I haven't had a lot of experience in relationships so i'm sure that clouds my judgment and thinking.

In the end, we both fell in love in an impossible situation. It hurts like hell and has consumed my thoughts for so long. It's truly maddening.

Thank you, for showing respect and appreciation for my situation. Thank you for recognizing that not all affairs are the same. I think I will just let myself breathe, maybe cry for what I feel, and try to find my way.