Thank you for this. I had a pretty deep period of introspection yesterday and it was hard to look myself in the mirror, literally and figuratively. Knowing that I've wasted seven years of my life is a hard pill to swallow. I should have gotten the help I needed when I tried to commit suicide when I was 18. Ever since then I've only been ignoring my problems and distracting myself online. It's time to stop running. Today I forced myself out of my house for the first time in almost a year and it was rough, I can't lie. But it was nice to be outside and be around people, even if they were just strangers. I'm committed to changing my lifestyle. I know it'll be difficult but I also know I can't afford to waste any more time doing nothing. I'm thankful I had enough, I don't know what to call it, mental capacity these past months to have some self-reflection and to stop going on /pol/, twitter, and reddit so much, to realize the faults of these places and how they've stunted me as a human being. To realize how detached I had become, how inhumane my thought process was for a long time. I just want to let go of this hate and bitterness I have and experience the life I should have been living this whole time.