I feel cursed. I am ugly with a weak chin/jaw, big bulbous nose, and long melted face. My head is too big and the shape is weird; someone described it as being like an "alien". My body is ridiculous. I was terrible at running. In highschool used to come in last in cross country after all the males and females. I have mental illnesses like OCD, thought broadcasting, social anxiety, maladaptive daydreaming, rumination, panic attacks, and more. It's so bad I barely graduated univ and I can't work with people. I also have narcissist traits. I'm asian male, ugly, and low-status in Korea and in Canada so I can't get any social or romantic experiences. I grew up lower middle class and my parents lacked basic common sense, social skills or social awareness. I have no talents. I used to be ok at art and drawing but my parents crushed any dreams of a non-academic future, even though I am just mediocre in academics. I am also super lazy, passive, timid, slow, awkward, and impractical.