I realized I am happier when I am living up to my expectations.I don’t owe anything to anyone.I spent 2 years studying to a test which I didn’t see the point of it just because I wanted to seem successfull to people.I tried to study even trough the hardest times.My mother had cancer and I was sleeping on the couch away from home just to be close to her and was still concerned about not studying right. I’ve been called lazy and irresponsible my whole life.I failed one time, people talked and talked and blamed myself for things that happened, but I still aim high and know I will succeed.Not for people around me but for myself from now on.I’ve just been diagnosed with adhd like 2 months ago and I felt so happy to realize that it wasn’t all my fault.Right now my hardest two year is about to end and I’m really excited to be spending my time on things that I enjoy doing.Even if I need to study hard I will be studying to things of my choice.I regained my confidence and started to believe in myself more than I even did.I don’t have to excuse myself to anyone and prove my worth.I feel reborn and have high hopes for tomorrow.My mother is getting better and I’m starting to live life the way I want.