Hey, Please try to think clearly about yourself and your future. What you're thinking about doing is not worth it. There are many people who care about you, and there are many organisations from all around the world who can help you. Here's some information about how to get help. Give them a go - what have you got to lose? Child Helplines (EU)
Telephone: 116 111 This number is free of charge. The number 116 111 is specifically for children who seek assistance and need someone to talk to. The service helps children in need of care and protection and links them to the appropriate services and resources; it provides children with an opportunity to express their concerns and talk about issues directly affecting them. Here's an alphabetical list of member states which have access to 116 111: Bulgaria, Cyprus, Czech Republic, Germany, Denmark, Estonia, Greece, Spain, Finland, Croatia, Hungary, Ireland, Lithuania, Luxembourg, Latvia, Poland, Portugal, Romania, Sweden, Slovenia, Slovakia, United Kingdom, Malta. Emotional Support Helpline (EU)
Telephone: 116 123 This number is free of charge. 116 123 is a phone number for people suffering from loneliness or who are in a state of psychological crisis or thinking about committing suicide. Here's an alphabetical list of member states which have access to 116 123: Austria, Czech Republic, Germany, Greece, Hungary, Ireland, Lithuania, Malta, Netherlands, Poland, Slovenia, Sweden, United Kingdom. National Suicide Prevention Lifeline (US)
Telephone: 1-800-273-8255 (1-800-273-TALK) Text: Text "START" (without quotes) to 741-741. Online Chat: Link. Others (Worldwide)
If the above organisations are inaccessible for whatever reason, you can click this link to be taken to a page. From there, you can take a look at a variety of hotlines that will help you, after you click on the category link corresponding to your location. You can also find many subreddits to help you with your problems. Here's a list of a few of them in no particular order: /r/SuicideWatch, /r/depression. <3
I hope you've found this information helpful, and I hope you use it well enough to change your mind.