Very nice link, so the ones who aren't in control are the baby reptiles running loose and being influenced by their surroundings? It feels wrong to say it so bluntly because I'm aware everyone's fully capable of being masters of themselves, but unfortunately some will never experience it. Their cause and effect can be heavily influenced by the established social structures, versus creating their own reality?
Lately I've been experiencing almost a liquid-like effect of physical reality and my mind blending together. One small example is I had a dream where I just cried as my father consoled me, I was grieving his death that happened a few months ago and it felt good to get it out. When I woke up, I thought I should stop by his grave and just think. About an hour before we went, my daughter tore out all of the stuffing from the only stuffed animal we have from him (she didn't know about my dream or where we were going to go) so we stuffed it all back in and sewed it up. We got to the grave, and they just installed his headstone earlier that morning.
Another example is one night I was reading how bees are important to keep fruits and such, and they're dying off rapidly. I thought to myself I really need to overcome my fears of bees so I can help them instead of trying to avoid them. The next morning my daughter said she woke up to a buzzing noise, and there was a bumblebee stuck in her window. I closed the window to take care of it later, but wanted to make sure it wouldn't fly out, so I turned on her PBS and the episode was about bees and honey. This all was basically telling me this was an opportunity so I took it and got him out (holy hell he was huge, I had to have my husband assist). It was nuts because I sat there and stared at him, contemplating how the heck I was going to get him out of there, and like 4 jumping spiders started to approach him all at once, he started flying around, I knew I had to help him if he was going to survive.
My point of telling you all of this is to display how everything's kind of blending together now, it's strange but way cool. Do you have any theories why this could be happening? I'm not sure if I'm comfortable putting this all out there so I might delete it, but I'd still appreciate the feedback! I feel like I'm truly creating my own reality at this point and have a level of control I don't know I'll ever understand, but I compare it to how I use to be and it's like living a different kind of life. Through what I've shown, are there any books you, or anyone else, recommends?