Yea I was thinking about this the other day at least something semi similar. Lately when the intrusive thoughts come it isn't followed by a lot of anxiety like I feel it should be so it makes me worry. It's almost like my anxiety is my security in some screwed up way where if I don't feel the anxiety, my thoughts actually have true intent behind them.

I also get what youre saying about your brain pulling out intrusive thoughts to try and get you anxious but it doesn't come because that's how it's been for me also. I'd like to believe it's a good thing and I feel like it is on some level, but Its our questioning of the thought and trying to analyze something that doesn't need to be analyzed that once again makes us fall back in the pit I feel.