Nah, there's no doubt in my mind it's what I have. Personal history & problems, plus verification from my family. That is plenty of evidence. My Dad is an egotistical bastard. I cared for him until I got a taste of who he really is. A while ago I confided to him I couldn't find an answer for my problems that were worsening at an alarming rate. I told him I was failing at life, and I was getting closer and closer to a successful ticket out. He denied any family history of anything, except that his father and mother were terrible parents to him. I told my mother my probs, and then what he said. She pulled court papers from the divorce where father advised he was seeking treatment for manic depressive disorder ( physical/verbal aggression to kids ), etc etc. And if you're going to ask, then no, I have no idea why she didn't tell me this before. I finally accepted what my older siblings knew. He would rather save face than help his son with an life-threatening disease that has already destroyed 10 years of my life. Plus, I lived with him in HS when the disease first made its emergence. Pretty obvious I was in trouble later on. I'm just whining now. Really, I need him to pay. His reputation means the most to him - being the life of the party with community respect. And he would hate people knowing he's a self-centered asshole, who is also a terrible father. I need proof - strong proof. Telling everyone about my life wouldn't sway people as much as saying this drug, which only works for BP & schizo ( plus MS and epilepsy ), not ADHD or regular unipolar depression, has turned my life around ( or at least when I take it ). And my Gram's wedding is a joke. She was told by God to marry this man ( she used to verbally fight the devil ), so ruining it doesn't matter at all - she'll leave him soon enough. I love her, but choosing church over medication was clearly a bad choice on her part. Finally, I also get to warn relatives about what is making our families so f***ed up, so they can catch the emergence in my nieces/nephews earlier.