I've been living in this purgatory for so long. I feel for you compadre. It seems there are so few types of people out there when you read through these posts. And the antagonist are so quick to assign a mental illness to people they don't know based on a obviously biassed and one sided story. Its a shame really. Because in the "social" culture it is not only okay its actually applauded when someone with mental disorders is broken and left for dead and often vilified for simply trying to make sense of things. Ive never been more disgusted with humanity than i am when read some of the stories on this website. Shame on all of those that batter the already broken. Where is your humanity? Oh that's right ... Its getting it's ego stroked for being so strong and brave. Please people help each other.