She has the job, I don't anymore. I never had a real job, I liove in the desert, my town is tiny. I did yardwork, drip lines, I can do it all, I always had enough people that needed something to have a good amount of money. Always, winter is comng, that work slows to a crawl, but it also slowed to a crawl because of addiction. Been doing painkillers since I was 18-19 and I never got sick, it wasn't until 22-23 I started getting sick, horribly sick when I was out. Police are raiding and arresting and just doing everything they can to get this stuff off the streets, it's impossible to find anything. My birthday was the 28th of May, this year, that was the first time I snorted H, and I haven't quit since, till now. We don't have money for lope or lyrica (can u snort lyrica, we bot snort), only a small bottle of kratom capsules which help but not nearly enough. I start doing painkillers because I was always doing labor intensive work (2-3 big jobs a day) I know I have back issues, the only thing a doctor can prescribe for me or my girl ( and my gf who was born with back issues, runs in family who takes prescriptions but would never give us any or could know about what we do) are muscle relaxers which do jack shit even at 800mg, it puts me to sleep, doesn't help the pain, I can't drive a car on them anything, opis different, everyone in town knows me as the guy you call if you need dirty work done as far as yards, drips, roofs, panting, anything. Nobody knows but my gf and i but we're started to be suspect by family and friends and thankfully we put that 'rumor' to rest (small town news spreads quick) but it's hard to keep up the facade and be productive or anything, without opiates. The thing that keeps me sane is game development, I am an artist and programmer, if you want I'll dm u some of my work. :)