Me and my girlfriend just broke up. We were together for 4 years. The last three months it was a long distance relationship because she doesn't know what her plan with life is. Her stay abroad should be a half of a year. I couldn't go with her because I'm almost finished with studying at the university. We promised each other that everything will be good and not like other long distance relationships. After some time passed she didn't respond to my messages as I hoped she would. I was absolutly confused. With her I learned what love is. I still love her. But since three weeks ago I had the feeling that this won't work out. Even when she just send me a ":)" I felt absolutly awesome and supressed all negative thougts. Time went on and one day I played through what a breakup would be like the other day i thought this will never happen. It was an inner fight. I felt so miserable like never before. This may sound a little weird but I tried to sort everything i was thinking. I tried to express everything in any form like a mind map, a text or a drawing. Nothing worked out well because when i was done with my work it didn't make sense to me anymore. Then I read a book which has a similar substory in it like the movie forest gump. A character just started running after something really bad happend in his live. He did not think about it for one moment, he just started running. That was the moment I knew what all this sayings like "life goes on" mean. I lost all my hate towards her and myself. No more worries about what she made wrong or what I could have done better. So we had a videocall and talked about everything. I suddenly understood her completely. She cried but I didn't shed a tear. In the end we sort of laughed about how shitty life can be and came to the conclusion to end the relationship. It is fucking sad but somehow I'm good with it. I have no clue how this went so well. I guess there will be some dark days in the future but "This too shall pass".