I regrettably did this more than once with my last ex over a period of 4 years.

I honestly was just not mature, ready, or experienced enough for such a relationship. I was also afraid of taking the next step, because she was my first long term girlfriend, I felt like I didn’t have enough experience to know if she was really the one for me or if I was missing out on dating. So I looked for lazy excuses why we weren’t right for each other and broke up with her. She was heart broken. But eventually we slowly rekindled things again.

But, my cowardice came about again. I didn’t know what I wanted, I couldn’t see how rare it is for me to connect with someone, and I broke her heart again. A few months later, this poor wonderful girl took me back again.

However, I wasn’t doing well in my life at the time. I just left my job to pursue a failed dream. Ended up moving back with my parents, I was poor as hell, and we were doing long distance. She eventually met a guy at her work, and dumped me for him. I was devestated, but not like I had any right to complain.

I can’t blame her though. From what I can tell he’s a good guy. Makes a decent living. Takes her around the world. Moved in together in less than 6 months. Got engaged a year after that.

I’m in a place now where I am looking for the long term, and want to live my life with someone. I just met her at the wrong time in my life, and I hate that. My biggest regret in my love life is the pain I put that woman through that she didn’t deserve.

Seeing how happy she is now though is the only thing that got me through.