I'm in a similar boat. I was 14 when I first watched Evangelion and after being diagnosed with major depression at 12, I was in the thick of it and was frequently suicidal. Evangelion didn't cure me of course, but it helped me grapple with a lot of my issues.

My depression manifested itself as anger and frustration frequently, and I based most of my limited self worth on my academic achievements. Naturally, Asuka became a very important character for me because we had so much in common. Although her end is a tragic one, seeing someone on screen so much like me, navigating through world teetering on the edge of death... It hit me hard. I felt seen and heard.

There hasn't been anything that has made me feel so raw and cut me so deep besides Evangelion. As a person with depression and social limitations, as a person who grew up in one of the hottest places in the country and had to watch climate change tear her home apart, as a person with a deep love for science fiction and what it says about the human condition.... Evangelion speaks to me like nothing else.

I owe so much of my poetry and writing to Eva, as well as my development as a person. Recently, after watching it for the first time, a friend of mine told me "I think I understand you better now".

Sorry if I'm rambling, I guess my point is... You're definitely not the only one who feels this way. Nge is really something else.