I was in a similar situation. I ended up staying for another year after I realized he has no good intentions. Just manipulative and controlling. The last few months of staying were the worst of my life. I suffer to this day (we split in 2017) from PTSD because of his (sexual) abuse.

All because an man with lots of insecurities thought he could make it up with having a victim that he uses to let his aggression out. Needles to say all the gaslighting and threats he put on me, with one standart being "If you leave my I'll will kill myself AND you" following violence and rapeing me, afterwards makeing me believe it couldn't be rape because we're in a relationship.

When I read this I was seeing myself back then. I know how freaking hard it is to leave someone that is makeing you feel comfortable but in reality he is just holding you as captive.

Best advice I can give is to find someone you cand talk with about this. In my case no one knew because he tried to isolate me from my family and friends (wonder why huh) Please go seek help and stop believing the lie that this man loves you