"Austyn, hello young man. Hope you are well. I want to extend an invitation to try to salvage our relationship as son and father. To sit down with you and let you tell me exactly how u feel and what zi need to do to earn tour trust and be apart of your life. If its not something u wanna do, thats fine, fully understand, but all wasnt what u think. And I feel like u need to hear my reasons and feeling about it all. I made some big mistakes, but I also tried very hard. And the greatest fact you probably do not believe nor ever felt is how very much I love u and am proud of the young man you are. Whether u believe this or not...YOU AND YOU ALONE PUSHED ME FOR THREE YRS TO BECOME A BETTER MAN EVERYDAY I ROTTED AWAY IN THAT PRISON. I HAVE LETTERS, PICTURES, THINGS I KEPT cause I wanted you to see them someday when u were old enough to understand not for a single day of my life have I not loved u unconditionally. I dont care what anyoneelse says, or what anyone thinks about me. My love for u was unwavering. Bit once you were allowed back in my life so much had changed, so much ill will anx bagged came with it and you were a pawn in the middle of it rather then the focal point of moving on. I was jist some man to u, not the man who was your dad, and that was not my fault yet i was paying the price for it and I allowed that anger and selfishness pull me away from doing the only thing I wad suppose to be doing. That was loving and caring for u. And i failed at that job when finally given the chance to do it. I dont want it to continue. I owe you the tyoe of love and relationship you deserve. Ive given u a shitty life and missed so much over immature grudges. But now their are no more excuses. Your an adult now. There are no more middle parties influencing our relationship or any other people I need to prove anything to or answer to but u. Its time if u let me for me to try to be some type of father to u be ause so far all i am is a name on your birth certificate. if you prefer that way i will leave you alone, but if you want to be apart of my family my arms are extended and yiu have a brother and sister who love u very much and want u in there life with all of us. I beg u for one more chance to love u the way u deserve to be loved. But its a relationship that starts and ends with u and I.as hard as yiur mother and si have tried, we have too much of a terrible past to ever forgive one another and it has ruined enough of my ability to lobe you how I should have been allowed to. But Im not taking the blame for all of thatand all i ask for is an oporitunity to sit down with you exolain to u why I left and why I broke your heart by walking oht of yiur lofe. And most important to say that a day doesnt go by that i am not sorry and more imoortably ashamed of it. And all the fault lies with me. I JUST DO NOT WANT TO MISS ANY THING MORE. AND I WANT THE CHANCE TO LOVE U AGAIN AND HAVE U IN MY LIFE. DO U THINK WE CAN TEY?"

Definitely wasted