I'm sorry, but I reported your post to the mods for breaking the second rule of this sub, "don't encourage delusions." On the one hand I regret doing so because your post is quite special; it's self-expressive, intimately honest, nicely written, and very creative. More poignantly, it echoes tremendously with my own past, from "death experiences" on DXM to messianic delusions and more.

That being said, you write some things that are very irresponsible to post in a forum intended primarily for people diagnosed with schizophrenia. You need to understand that this is a sub that's all about peer support. If you're looking for support that's great—I certainly wouldn't reject you just because you're not diagnosed with a psychotic disorder. In fact, you've definitely gone through some heavy shit and I would be happy to offer support if I can.

But when you ask "Can anyone relate to this?", you're not asking for support. You're asking for people to validate your ideas. What's more, you're asking for it from a vulnerable population. Sure, maybe you've discovered some deep truth about "mental parasites," and sure, maybe other people share that view. But you need to understand that certain individuals may experience great anguish associated with such beliefs. Your post could be triggering all sorts of shit, or inspiring new delusional ideas that worsen someone's paranoia or other sources of suffering. Suffering can lead to worse things like irrational decision-making and harm to self or others.

I imagine that you didn't consider those risks when you posted this here. I hope you'll take a moment to reflect on my words, and perhaps you'll agree that posting this here may not have been the wisest decision. I hope you will understand.