I thought I was entwined with karma in a way that I was responsible for every event that occurred throughout history and going forwards. I held guilt over everything from Jesus death to the Holocaust to the fact that we have to eat living things to survive. And the only way to break the cycle would be to not sin and stop eating.

Eventually I forgave myself and figured I could forgive others for all actions because it's not our fault we are simply caught in the web of karmic action. It's like a predestined thing. Instead I would simply try my best to live a humble life, easing the suffering of myself and others where I can.

I no longer have this delusion that stuff before me and by others is also my fault but I still want to live in a way that eases suffering for myself and others and spread love and joy. Which is kind of a lot of pressure to put on myself especially when I have days I'm not really feeling good or I'm stressed at work it can be hard.