I honestly don’t know... i’m having a hard time with a lot. I usually keep to myself, well i’m social but i dont like sharing personal things. Idk it’s a fucked up cycle. and you never think you can get addicted but i can definitely admit i am. Honestly the biggest eye opener, was after my crazy hexen binge I dropped almost 30 lbs from stress and abuse, I came back home and one of my best friends, a grown ass man took a single look at me and broke down crying. Now that shit hurt.

In the end it’s up to me. I just need to keep on going. I don’t do nearly as much drugs and i’m eventually gonna stop completely, but to help i’ve been learning 3 languages, i learned how to code websites and I started online business. Alright fuck it. It all started with my girlfriend committing suicide. Never met a more beautiful person with the most amazing personality. Most down to earth person i’ve ever met She was beautiful inside and out not to mention out of my league. I just blamed myself for a long time. And it still hurts but can’t dwell on the past, live and learn... But that’s the easy way out, in the end fuck depression and drugs it’s mind over matter and I will keep on living. That’s the plan. Sorry didn’t mean to get all heavy but a reminder to myself every now and then knocks me back on track