I feel like I don’t matter to a single person on this earth. Every time I get close to someone they seem to drift away, I don’t know what’s wrong with me that pushes people away. Im not clingy, I don’t think. Maybe I am... I’m single and have no actual friends. I’m pretty sure my parents would really prefer they only had one child (the successful one, not me). I don’t think they’d miss me for more than a week at most.

My most recent friendship just started falling apart too, he’s “always busy” but posting pics on Facebook of hanging out with mutual acquaintances. I’m taking it extra hard because it feels like the last straw. He wasn’t even that good of a friend, it’s just that he was my only one, and I’m so fed up with being lonely all the time. I’m not religious but I go to church with my dad sometimes just to hold people’s hands during the Our Father, it’s the only time I ever get any human contact...