I hope this doesn't come as too strange. I have social anxiety too, but I become too used to have people smirking and laughing at me because of my awkward social behaviour and at the strange ways I dress, that I started to have an type of coping mechanism where I imagine myself as an tongue-in-cheek celebrity.

Yes, it sounds extremely delusional thing to say, but I'm already known only by sight when I walk on the streets or shopping malls. Sometimes I enjoy the attention of people looking at me, but yeah, I know my behaviour is not normal and I have to change it. Though my first diagnosis at my younger years was of autism, I'm not sure if it was correct since I'm 18 years old now without any contact to doctors.

Sorry for making this comment more about myself and not to the OP, but I hope you are OK. You are a very pretty girl and stay strong.